so this is pretty much the worst ive felt in a long time. i find it hard to grasp the concept of prolonged happiness in its essence. i hate being apart from the people i care about the most. and it hurts even more when they would rather be around someone else who doesnt even closely feel the time. the weekend i 'literally' almost died from a broken heart. while slowly dying i jotted down some thoughts that i had going through my mind, or things i was being told to write down by who knows...

"See you don't listen, it was really long ago. Sometimes you lie when you dont want to cheat. I'm not a baby. That's where you want me to grieve me. You left so long ago. 11x7x7x2. Make a good example for you. Singapore in Rome in goodness we keep. I will be missing you too. I might be around does it mean it has to be in another state? Apologize and push me out the way. Traffic stopped in this country of ours, we want everyone to be good friend. The affects happened while you were in the hospital he got new headset phones. Draw the responses. I'm reading it. Act more! Act more! Act more! Baby boomers talk of the town. you by S_______E a L_____W instead you want it right now. Theyre writing behind books. Rock & Roll, Rock & Roll he just had a kid."

the most and least sense ive made in awhile. dont ask... unless you really want to know.
xxx